trying to hard

Good morning God,
Am I just trying to hard? Again today, my ego is presenting with anxiety. I observe that the ego is anxious and perhaps, trying to re-identify in ME. I choose TRUTH. Am I looking to hard? Am I allowing ego to dictate? I observe that my anxiety increases as I get closer to TRUTH. ego, do not be afraid, God will take care of us. MYSELF has so identified with ego that even MYSELF has trouble realizing TRUTH. That is an ego statement - MYSELF has never lost TRUTH. This NOW, I AM. What problem do I have NOW? I do not have any problem NOW. Tolle describes problems as past and future. The moment of NOW frightens ego as there is no identification of ego in now. Again, i say to ego, do not be afraid. ALL that IS, IS with us right NOW. Jesus, I ask that YOU stand in for my ego today. My sense of separation frightens me and i am sure that i do not know what i am doing. I choose PEACE. I feel better. My ego struggles with this. A war rages inside. I allow Jesus to help ME return to TRUTH - i cannot do this myself. ego wants to guide - ego is afraid - ego does not want to die - I love you ego - it is ok to remember - you may go with ME - I shall not forsake you - Jesus IS with us - the Christ in US can remember TRUTH - we will both like it - you may come with ME - you will not die but really live - you may be at PEACE - you may feel JOY - you do not need to feed upon death - you may feed upon LIFE - you may like it, too - it is ok - you are loved too - no one is going to get you- little ego, you have been so afraid, you never need be afriad again - you ARE part of ME - I love you - WE need never be afraid again -I love you - it is ok - TRUST in Jesus to show us TRUTH - you will like it, not die. Jesus, thank you for that, please stay with me and help my ego understand that LOVE is for ALL, even afraid little egos. ego feels less afraid, thanks.