my ego has failed me - THANK GOD!

Today is 3-24-08, the day after our 2nd earliest Easter, in history. What has occurred to me, is that I have NO basis for any opinion. As I watch my mind for thoughts, I do see that they are all over the place. Just as I observe a thought, almost immediately, I cancel that with a totally contrary thought. I have watched this for some time now and am sure that this is what my ego is doing to confuse me. Most of the contrary thoughts form from fear: like, oh that will not happen. I usually begin with a positive thought and cancel that out with the LACK of possibility. It seems as if my ego mind is searching for possibility but will NEVER settle on one. My reading makes me think that this is egos' survival technique. If nothing is possible with GOD, then I will continue to turn to ego for salvation. It is upon this dependency that my ego survives.
And what is my ego? Only the fear that I am separated from the God of possibility.
If I am no longer part of, connected to, actually AN I AM, then i have no power in the universe except what this little body can produce. I must work for food, lift only certain weight, move only as fast as my legs can move, etc. Now, we believe that Jesus did not have to work for food ( feeding 1,000's with one loaf of bread ) could lift and move mountains and move at the speed of thought. Is Jesus separate and different than us? Was HE given more power in the universe OR did He KNOW ( remember ) WHO HE IS. If, as I hope, He KNEW who He IS, then can all remember who WE ARE?( tenses used intentionally). Jesus teaches that we are ALL the same. He teaches that we can ALL remember WHO WE ARE. Do I just not believe Him? Actually, I guess I have disbelieved Him, and have believed what my ego shows me instead. Jesus and many other teachers, have taught, through the years, that we are God's, that All are One with the God I have believed separated me from HIMSELF. Yes, I believe that God separated me from HIM. MY QUESTION FOR TODAY: CAN THE BELIEF THAT GOD SEPARATED ME FROM HIM BE HEALED?
I have some faith that my belief that GOD separated me from Him may be incorrect and that this belief can be corrected, if asked. I do ask for this correction. Jesus teaches in the Course that I need do nothing. So, I just ask. The doing nothing is the hard part. For me right now, that seems to be NOT trying to 'think up' the answer myself, which is just an ego trick. I am trying to have no opinion, on as many things as possible, in order to do nothing. I have been overwhelmed by my own ego thoughts and hope that by not listening to them, when possible, the TRUTH can come through.
Doing nothing seems the greatest challenge, thus far. I want to have the answers because I am afraid that, if I don't come up with them, they will not come on their own - or be given. This is clearly a separated, ego belief. i must do it myself. I so clearly see that I have made up all the answers i have believed so far. My ego has NOT succeeded in its attempt to be right.
Peace to the world - Lynn