ANOTHER DETOUR

Goodmorning,
In the last post, I wrote about a new job. Indeed, I did go to this job for three (3) days. Two (2) situations seemed in place. First, I was becoming ill with allergies and respiratory infection and the job itself was unsatisfying. The respiratory issue was due to mold growing in our kitchen. Recently, we had a pipe leak under our kitchen floor. This was repaired and we thought no more about this. As I grew more and more reactive to allergy, I began to suspect mold, my most sensitive allergy. Indeed, this morning, a crew has uncovered this mold and mitigation will begin.
The job fell directly in the middle of this mold reaction and, at the time, I believed myself to fragile to go back to work. I discontinued my employment based upon two factors. One, the thought that I was ill and secondly that this job would be unsatisfying regardless. What I believed to be a challenging pursuit of funding, on behalf of cancer patients, turned out to be no more than order taking. The position required me to be tethered to a telephone and breaks and lunch were " on the clock" to the minute. I am just to old and have to much experience to enjoy this rigid experience.
So, I am now in the process of mold mitigation and back to the drawing board as it relates to employment. I am relieved to believe that I am NOT to fragile, physically, to work and will continue to look for something that is satisfying.
Tolle encourages all to be OK with uncertainty. To understand that life is a journey and not a predictable trip. Conceptually I understand and agree. Experiencially, I have yet to make that connection. I challenge myself to be OK with whatever comes up but what feels lacking in that is desire. I will ponder this aspect. For today, I am OK, even good. Today is all we have.
Peace to the world

LIFE TAKES A DETOUR

Goodmorning,
It is another "beginning" for my journey. Having found an ad in the 5-4-08 newspaper for a job fair, being held by one company, I attended. Within 45 minutes, a job offer was presented. Now for months, I had sent out resumes with no response and within 45 minutes an offer was extended. I will be working in the healthcare field securing funding for RX for patients. This is a good fit for me.
I have mixed emotions about this detour. I worry that I will not be up to the task physically but I feel good. On the other side, I am bored and will enjoy the stimulation. I have committed myself to a positive attitude and will also monitor myself for signs of over work and resulting fatigue. There is anxiety present - but not necessarily 'bad' anxiety. It is difficult for me to distinguish between excitement and 'bad' anxiety - perhaps there is both.
I am not sure what this leg of my journey is for. The financial rewards will be nice but there is more to this for me. I will be working for the first time, with no other responsibilities ( ie Children). I do not have to give up much, at all, to move into this, so it will be a new experience. Lunch with friends will be limited, but that is OK. Naps, in the afternoon, might become an issue that I will have to consider. Perhaps I napped in boredom - perhaps in physical need. We will see.
I shall look at this as a new and wonderful adventure. I will meet new people and learn more of what makes us tick.
Peace to the world

UNDERSTANDING

Good morning,
Today, I AM understanding in some etheral way. Strange, I do not even really understand what I AM understanding. I seem to have thoughts that feel vague - just barely out of my mental reach. Perhaps, i am trying to understand when it is experience that calls to me. I AM allowing this process - whatever it is.
PEACE to the world